About Me

I was born in the seaside town of Blackpool on the 4th May 1981 spent two years of my life living in Poulton-le-Fylde then we moved to Penwortham near the city of Preston which is where I’ve been festering for most of my life. I’m proud to be northern I think I’ll only ever go south to live if it’s to Barcelona or Ireland.

When I was 14 I was diagnosed with having “Clinical Depression” yes a chemical imbalance in my brain that made me feel like shit. I think that a lot of people don’t understand that about Depression it’s not an emotion it’s an actual illness.

I don’t mind talking about it in fact I enjoy talking about and I understand that people probably have their own thoughts about mental health and all that but it’s who I am. Although I don’t try and dwell on it to much these days it’s been a hard struggle to say the least to get where I am now. But I’ve got through it and out the other end. I’ve come  off my anti depressants which is something I’ve decided to do since I want to feel human again. I have no shame in taking Prozac it helps me function when I need to but I don’t need it at the moment! I admire people who say that they can live without anti depressants but it’s not for everyone is it?

I also put on a lot of weight due to comfort eating which in turn gave me agoraphobia and social phobia (one being scared of going out the other being scared of meeting new people), My weight is probably one of the biggest pains in my life and I get a lot of people judging me before they get to know me. I’ve tried to lose it and I do but I have to admit maybe being a lazy cow and having an addiction to chocolate don’t help lol. I am fat and I don’t mind saying it but don’t judge me coz of it ok?

Anyway due to all that I left school without any qualifications went in and out of education not knowing what I wanted to do and to cut it all short I’ve done course after course lol and  and I passed my adult course in Art and Design. I always see it as hard work but hard work I enjoy and who knows at the end of the day I could go to university from doing this!

But I am who I am I have dyed  hair and piercings. I’m 5ft 9 (1.75 meters) I like wearing my new rocks (that make me 6ft) and converse all stars (NOT at the same time that would be just stupid lol).

I’m also an artist photographer and web designer. I’m in to Formula one car racing in a big way (GO FERNANDO). I love listening to The Clash and U2 and other music on my iPod (What’s a radio and CD?). I love going to Barcelona and the Irish Republic and my dream is to live in both them places!

There are only two flaws in my personality! I’m really toooooo nice and I tend to put up with things that are probably pissing me off as I don’t like falling out with people and arguing. I also swear a lot and my fave sayings are can’t be arsed (as in can’t be bothered) and WHATEVER!!!

So this is only the short of my life. There are a lot of things that have happened things that are no longer necessary to think about as I’m over it! I really do think that the things that have happened in my life and are happening can and have made me stronger person.

I have no regrets every step of my life is a way of learning!